FEAR of history --------------- can u beleive it?
ya i have it from deep down ma childhood, i have it. but the worst of it i faced now. i get few days off from my schedule, in that tym eventually i got an invitation to meet one of ma freind in ahmedabad.with some lay offs i went their by bus, i am sure the bus was school bus i knw it frm the space in it. i felt really calm in ahmedabad after mumbai's famous chaos. some remebering oldies, mesmerizing present , nice hang out with her. the same day i went back , this tym i can say journey was lil comfortable. actually this is not the thing what i wanna tell u all shit start happening then, i was taking a relaxing nap, after this say hectic journey , my roomiee came rushing , shouting that bull shit pandemic SWINE FLU spread in NITIE.one of my freind tested positive. it was on news as the thing has to happen , i was asked by my parents to return home by first flight. till this also u know it was cool , when my mom told me my elder bro is in hospital admitted foe flu in hyderabad, this word made my heart pounding fast. instantly i booked my flight for hyderabad, same day i was in plane, remembering deep bacl down history , thats real sad........
it was dec 20 , we were boarding a bus for chitrakoot for a tour. last year of my graduation, we were full in bhasad mood.our bus journey was rocking, we reached the destination at 4am. when we were hiring auto, i got a call, that call crashed all things i care for. i got news , that two of my closest buddy ADDU & TOBU have met an accident and are no more. there were some impulse quarreling inside me.the next thing i remmeber i did was i board a bus back to raipur.in my way i get lots of call , some inquiring, some confirmimg, some calming , but there were no calmness, i thought it wud have been me who shud be thr . why i was not thr?? i reached raipur , then took train for raigarh, went to their home and rest thing i cant , i just cant.................
back to me in plane , the same thing happening again , i went to ahmedabad, when i returned i heard one fataliting news, this tyme more devastating, more close.i cant handle. then i was in apollo hospital, hyderabad. my bro was luking weak , on reaching first thing i did was met with doc, and my curiosity plus fear made me to ask all detail abt him , he was tested postive for DENGUE FLU, and his platelets were decreaing heavily. he arranged himself platelets , his colleagues, his boss all were there. doc said once platelets count goes stabilised , he will be ok. i have to run from his home to hospital, to blood bank to his ward.but one thing i admire abt him , being far away from home, he has real guts. he was not at all terrified, nor lost hope.he was smiling, talking to me for hours, u knw i remember our childhood days, my bro is closest frnd of mine we play, study , roam together but aftr that we have never been togetehr for this much tym. but my fear was making me restless. the day when sister said his platelets count has risen to 2.3 lakh, i felt lyk ALLAH loves me, ,m cpable of his mercy. HISTORY has not revealed itself. alhamdolillah . my dad's flight arrived just that day. and the fun part has risen to infinity , we three sat have lots of chats, views, those moment are valueless..........
today i m back to my coll but still remember ADDU & tobu, and how much effect the accident have on me...but their is always hope in ALLAH, he who had made us all. but the FEAR of HISTORY, i dnt thnk i wud come off it...
ya i have it from deep down ma childhood, i have it. but the worst of it i faced now. i get few days off from my schedule, in that tym eventually i got an invitation to meet one of ma freind in ahmedabad.with some lay offs i went their by bus, i am sure the bus was school bus i knw it frm the space in it. i felt really calm in ahmedabad after mumbai's famous chaos. some remebering oldies, mesmerizing present , nice hang out with her. the same day i went back , this tym i can say journey was lil comfortable. actually this is not the thing what i wanna tell u all shit start happening then, i was taking a relaxing nap, after this say hectic journey , my roomiee came rushing , shouting that bull shit pandemic SWINE FLU spread in NITIE.one of my freind tested positive. it was on news as the thing has to happen , i was asked by my parents to return home by first flight. till this also u know it was cool , when my mom told me my elder bro is in hospital admitted foe flu in hyderabad, this word made my heart pounding fast. instantly i booked my flight for hyderabad, same day i was in plane, remembering deep bacl down history , thats real sad........
it was dec 20 , we were boarding a bus for chitrakoot for a tour. last year of my graduation, we were full in bhasad mood.our bus journey was rocking, we reached the destination at 4am. when we were hiring auto, i got a call, that call crashed all things i care for. i got news , that two of my closest buddy ADDU & TOBU have met an accident and are no more. there were some impulse quarreling inside me.the next thing i remmeber i did was i board a bus back to raipur.in my way i get lots of call , some inquiring, some confirmimg, some calming , but there were no calmness, i thought it wud have been me who shud be thr . why i was not thr?? i reached raipur , then took train for raigarh, went to their home and rest thing i cant , i just cant.................
back to me in plane , the same thing happening again , i went to ahmedabad, when i returned i heard one fataliting news, this tyme more devastating, more close.i cant handle. then i was in apollo hospital, hyderabad. my bro was luking weak , on reaching first thing i did was met with doc, and my curiosity plus fear made me to ask all detail abt him , he was tested postive for DENGUE FLU, and his platelets were decreaing heavily. he arranged himself platelets , his colleagues, his boss all were there. doc said once platelets count goes stabilised , he will be ok. i have to run from his home to hospital, to blood bank to his ward.but one thing i admire abt him , being far away from home, he has real guts. he was not at all terrified, nor lost hope.he was smiling, talking to me for hours, u knw i remember our childhood days, my bro is closest frnd of mine we play, study , roam together but aftr that we have never been togetehr for this much tym. but my fear was making me restless. the day when sister said his platelets count has risen to 2.3 lakh, i felt lyk ALLAH loves me, ,m cpable of his mercy. HISTORY has not revealed itself. alhamdolillah . my dad's flight arrived just that day. and the fun part has risen to infinity , we three sat have lots of chats, views, those moment are valueless..........
today i m back to my coll but still remember ADDU & tobu, and how much effect the accident have on me...but their is always hope in ALLAH, he who had made us all. but the FEAR of HISTORY, i dnt thnk i wud come off it...
